As a winter storm blew fresh, scintillating snow and freezing rain on the land, I was feeling blue. I enjoy celebrating the Winter Solstice with like-minded people and spend the whole night meditating, painting, and leading spiritual processes... but in the hectic schedule of the last few months as I transitioned fully and definitively from corporate world to being self-employed, I had forgotten to book the celebration! And now the winter storm seemed to validate that this was a Solstice to be experienced in quiet contemplation and meditation.
Instead of dwelling on my blues, I decided to do something. A personal ceremony was in order! I took a long warm bath in salt water and essential oils, using my own "Forehead Chakra" mix. I meditated on everything I was releasing from my life as I enter a new phase.
Then, I took out my paint brushes out "to play". I allowed the painting to reveal itself to me.
|The Crossing, Winter Solstice 2013|
This is the result of my meditative Solstice painting... I started by creating the indigo sky. The paintbrushes wanted to spiral with the paint and create movement. The entire canvas became filled with the indigo hue and a few tiny stars. It then felt right to paint the golden mandala circle.
Mermaid really wanted to be painted in so I invited her in my circle. At first I thought, "I can not paint a mermaid, I don't know how!" And on my exhale I let that restrictive thought go as I instructed Mermaid to paint herself in... I was wondering what she was reaching for... then the spiral portal appeared with... me in the centre! Safely arriving through the portal! I wondered who else was there greeting me as I felt surrounded by more beings of Light and higher vibration. Fairy appeared, wanting a pink dress, red shoes, and green flowers on her dress. Finally, my Guardian angels revealed themselves, enveloping the passage and lovingly guiding me through.
The painting then felt complete and I set down the paintbrushes, said a word of gratitude and finally went to bed. It was 3AM - this year, I did not wait for the sunrise before going to bed. Filled with the bliss of my inspired creative work, I decided to go to sleep and perhaps find that portal through my dreams.
|Soul Search, Winter Solstice 2012|
I find it interesting to notice somewhat of a link between this year's Winter Solstice painting, and last year's... Last year, I had painted a female figure in a Light bubble, travelling to the stars. It seems that if last year I consciously set out on this journey, I have arrived at the threshold crossing this year! The journey was arduous: I dealt with my depression and took a year off work to rebuild myself from the inside. I got clear on my goals. I started to really love myself and accept myself for who I truly am. My return to work this Fall was a validation that the old me was no more and that it was no use to continue to follow that path. It's time to forge a new path!
And here I am, very excited about all the opportunities this new year will bring. I am feeling so very blessed and proud of the spiritual work I've done this past year. I am also feeling some fear and anticipation for I am walking a path that is new to me... at least in this life, for my soul remembers the way.
I am wishing you merry musings, too. When is the last time you took out your paintbrushes? Just have fun, allow your imagination to guide you. Don't expect a masterpiece - simply allow your inner self to express itself in full colour. Enjoy the process, you can be surprised at the insights you will gain!