Reiki and Energy Work for a broken bone - Epilogue

Over a year already since I injured my wrist. I am finally taking time to write an epilogue to the three blog entries documenting my journey with a cast.

• March 25, 2013: Reiki and Energy Work for a Broken Bone
• April 1, 2013:  Reiki for a broken bone - Week 1
• April 8, 2013:  Reiki for a broken bone - Week 2

I think that part of the reason why I was procrastinating writing more on this healing journey is that I felt it had somehow failed. When I returned to the hospital 4 weeks after my injury I expected the bones to be fully mended – after all, doctors had said it would take 4-6 weeks for the injury to heal, and Reiki is supposed to speed up recovery so I expected my healing would take a shorter amount of time.

Once the cast was removed, I knew it wasn’t healed and I felt surprised and disappointed. I couldn’t even raise my arm from the x-ray table without assistance from my left hand due to the pain. My hand was still swollen and yellow from the bruising. The lines in my palm were absent due to the swelling (it was so strange to see a blank palm!). Then I started wondering if I had done Reiki “wrong”, or if I hadn’t been consistent enough in my application of Reiki, or if Reiki really did work… My faith in energy healing was dampened, and that is not something I am proud of nor did I want to share my doubts with my clients, students and readers. I could still feel the energy at work, I felt the reassurance of guides, and I knew I was growing emotionally and spiritually – but why wasn’t my body healing almost instantly?

The cast was removed 3 weeks later, the injury being fully healed. I needed a few weeks more to slowly return to the full use of my hand, wrist and arm. My chiropractor gently adjusted the wrist bones and my massage therapist continued to relieve residual pain in the shoulder girdle and arm. And oh the joy of showering without a plastic bag on my arm, and washing my hair with both hands! I returned to the joy of writing with my right hand, sleeping without pillow support under my arm and without the fear of clubbing my husband as I slept, cooking without the odors of the food “sticking” to the cotton of the cast and following me everywhere… And the household slowly went back to its previous state with most of the house chores falling upon me, the others being not as quick to help now that I wasn’t as helpless…

There are some good habits I maintained, like involving my son in cooking and increasing his chores to a level more appropriate to his age. I am also better at asking for help although deep down I still dislike it. I guess I have some of that super-woman I-can-do-it-all syndrome going on…

It was also interesting to use my wrists as practice for my students discovering energy work and Reiki; I was asking them to energetically sense both wrists and see if there was a difference, and all of them were amazed that they could sense a difference between the wrists. Most noted that there was more buzzing energy over the one that had been injured. The wrist continued to protect itself and kept knitting the bones for many months after the cast was removed.

In May this year, I met a gentleman in his sixties sporting a blue cast. I asked him about his injury and shared some of my story about breaking my wrist while disco-skating. He had tripped over an electrical cord. He mentioned that he took three days before going to the hospital because although he felt some pain, there was very little swelling and he just thought he had sprained his wrist. He was surprised that he actually had broken a bone.

A few weeks later, my son broke his wrist while playing dodge ball at school. Same story with him: there was some pain and minimal swelling but no big egg-shaped swelling on the wrist and “sausaging” of the fingers like I had experienced the previous year. But with the story of the other man fresh in my memory, I decided to bring my son to the ER for an x-ray just in case. He was in a cast for 4 weeks.

A few hours after breaking my wrist,
still in the ER with disco glitter...
Can you see the egg shaped swelling
forming over the broken bone?

So then I realized how serious my injury had been. In comparison to these 2 new case studies, where there was only discomfort instead of pain that would make you pass out, and no swelling… I had won the prize so to speak for the biggest, baddest wrist injury around. Then I remembered how Reiki helped me reduce the pain and keep my intake of painkiller to a minimum during the first few days. I wasn’t surprised anymore that it took my body more than 4 weeks to heal since it had more work to do than for a simple fracture. I became actually amazed that it took only 7 weeks to heal now that I understood how messy the injury had been. I was finally able to move from disappointment in energy work in the matter of broken bones, into gratitude and love.

And so it is true that healing doesn’t always work in the way we wish it to work. In my case, I had wanted a full recovery in 4 weeks or less without understanding the gravity of the situation. When I realized it wasn’t happening, my faith in energy work wavered. What was I doing wrong that my request went unanswered? I wanted my will to be done without understanding the bigger picture…

Can you see that pattern in your life as well – wanting your will to be manifested instantly without an understanding of the fuller picture? Is it difficult for you to fully surrender to Spirit without wanting to control the outcome of a situation? Do you judge what should happen and are you disappointed when what you believe should happen does not manifest?

We all go there. It’s one of our lessons as humans.

I now feel more humble and grateful for the healing gifts I have. I know they work although it’s not always in the shape, type or timing I imagine. I am learning to “let go and let God” in an even deeper, more intimate and more grateful way than ever before.

Do you need help understanding the greater picture of a physical or emotional injury? I’ve been through a personal process and I have also guided many clients to more clarity, understanding and inner peace. I would love to have the opportunity to journey with you, too.

If you want to explore how we could be a good match to journey together, book your complimentary 30-minute Clarity Session. This link brings you straight to my calendar so you can book a time and date that is most convenient to you. I am looking forward to hearing from you!

I am grateful for bird pooh

Really? How can that be? And how can that be spiritual?? How dare I go there?

The thing is, it’s often the small things in life that bear great gifts. It is also often the messy parts of our lives that bring forth treasures of courage, soul growth, and myriad blessings.

Surprise!  Black Raspberries from my garden.

This year, I decided I wouldn’t do a vegetable garden. Launching my business full time is taking a lot of time and effort and I decided I just didn’t have the energy or dedication to spend the required time outdoors weeding, planting, rearranging, watering… Nature decided otherwise.

Five rows of garlic came up, and just about as many onions – I had forgotten to harvest the bulbs last year. So did 2 potato plants, and a patch of carrot seeds that didn’t want to grow last year suddenly decided this was the year to grow. Then, hiding behind the garden shed is a treasure: a huge bush or two of black raspberries! They are so delicious and filled with sunshine, and unlike the seeds and bulbs I know I planted earlier, they came as a complete surprise. The seeds were probably dropped by a bird. Or a squirrel. Likely from their digestive tract…

And because business and spiritual development is always on my mind, it got me thinking: in life and in business, we often have to work through lots of… unpleasant things… to grow our dreams, goals and aspirations. When someone deals us less savoury comments or menial tasks, it is good practice to see how we can move through that and learn valuable life lessons and skills that will bring us closer to our objective. When life drops us an unexpected painful situation, it is good practice to become aware how that situation contributed to our character and growth as a person. We don’t see the benefits right away, and the life lesson isn’t immediately clear: like the seeds that work their way through manure to grow to their highest potential, we need to take a step back and allow life and energy to work its magic within us. We want to see results right away, when sometimes we need to wait for thought-seeds to grow and blossom at the most appropriate time.

Often, it is through unpleasant events, and when we expect it the least, that we find the best, biggest, juiciest surprises!

And so, as I eat a bowlful of sunny black raspberries, I give thanks to the bird who dropped the seeds last year. I give thanks for the surprise bounty of my garden. I give thanks to the less savoury bits of my life too because, in retrospect, I understand how they became fertile ground for growing my dreams, my gifts, my soul.

Can you spend some time today giving thanks for the pooh in your life? What bounty has grown of it? What is the lesson or the blessing?

I have many tools, meditations and mindset-shifting techniques I would love to teach you! I can work with you on changing your mindset and your perceptions. I can help you understand the soul lessons of your life.  I can surround you with the energy of Reiki that will nurture your soul.  Are you ready to feel more joy and abundance?

Sending you blessings of joy!

Oracle Forecast: June 2014

From the Mediterranean Sea...  view the June Oracle forecast!

Much Love from my heart to yours!

Spiritual Oracle Card Reading, May 2014

If you recall last month's Oracle Card Reading, there was a promise of transformation if we did our work of simplifying our needs and activities, and focused on what brings us peace and joy.  How was your transformation journey?  Were you able to quiet your mind to feel what was necessary, and therefore focus necessary energy to that which will grow your Light?

I had so much on my to-do list, including 3 wellness shows, one speaking event, the start of a new Chakradance cycle...  I confess I did not take much time off to be quiet and reflect. The Universe tried to help by frying the video card of my computer, which has been in the repair shop for the past 2 weeks.  I've had to slow down on the technological front, if nothing else!  There's only so much I can do on the iPad...  but I still pushed forward.  Now, it's my brain's turn to feel fried, and there's no repair shop for that! (some may argue to the contrary, but that will be an other debate, lol!)

And so, in the spirit of keeping it simple, this month's Spiritual Reading is back to the basic written format.  Maybe I'll be able to produce a video again next month?  We'll see what Spirit has in store for me then.

"Soul Coaching" Oracle cards by Denise Linn

In this first week of May, Spirit reminds us to focus on Gratitude.  We are asked to remember and give thanks for our blessings.  There is so much happening in the world at this time from wonky energy and astrological patterns to acts of violence and warmongering...  Any sensitive soul can easily feel sideswiped and depleted when faced with these heavy, negative energies.  Because we know that what we focus on, grows and manifests - it is our duty as Lightworkers to highlight all the good that is happening in our world.  Give thanks for daily, mundane blessings and acts of kindness.   Look for the good in leaders and politicians.  Celebrate the sunny days.  Sing, dance and enjoy life!  Remember that life is special, that it's a gift and a miracle.  When you live with that energy, you show others how to do the same - and that's a wonder-full service you do to this world!

Continue upholding that energy in the second week of May, and bring your attention on all the beauty of the Universe.  Shine from within.  Make space to love yourself more.  Celebrate life and its miracles by seeing through the eyes of true beauty.  See how Nature renews herself.  Find ways to beautify your home, your yard, a park, a shoreline.  Engage that inner "Nature Guardian of Gaia" and find ways to protect the sanctity of Nature and her cycles.  Do your gardens contain species of plants and vegetables native to the area?  Can you compost yard waste?  How about decorating a rain water collector, or picking up garbage in a public park or side street?  Remember also to renew yourself, and to spend time to honour your body: rest, go to the spa, soak in some sun, exercise outdoors, dress up for dinner...  When we pay loving attention to ourselves and the world around us, it is yet an other way to contribute loving vibes to the world.  We contribute radiance and harmony to our surroundings.  We also affirm that what we desire is a beautiful, loving, harmonious planet.  We affirm that we value life - all of life!

In the third week of May, we are once again asked to simplify.  This seems to be a recurring theme, and therefore a lesson for many of us.  Maybe I'll do better this month?  Again, we are asked to focus on what really matters and to release the rest.  When we focus on our truth and release the fluff, we are on our way to inner peace, grace and harmony.  Apply the KISS approach (Keep It Simple, Sister!).  A busy life can become quite cluttered, and outer clutter fosters inner clutter.  We lose our sense of self, and it becomes difficult to hear and understand the subtle voice of Spirit amidst the chaos.  When we clear clutter in our home, it helps clear clutter in our minds and emotions.  Simplicity brings a sense of serenity.

By the end of the month, and if we have applied the guidance suggested by Spirit, we will feel a sense of increased freedom.  Beautification and simplification are the required action to help our spirit soar!  It's now time to be wild, to laugh more, to explore, to go beyond our typical boundaries and predictable behaviours.  Run with the wind, dance in the rain.  Live life on your terms.  Remember that you have the ability to choose your life, your thoughts, your emotions, your reactions and responses to what life throws at you...  Decide on the meaning you want to give to your life's situations and experiences, and select meanings that empower you.  You are free to create and manifest your dreams, so dream big and go for it!  Now that you've cleared your home and thoughts of what doesn't support your dream, and now that you have beautified your space to reflect your inner beauty and aspirations, it's time to grab your dream by the fluffy rainbow mane and ride!!

Your turn to share:  how will you beautify your body, your space and your environment this month?  What action, activity, behaviour, or "stuff" are you willing to release to simplify your life and make room for your dream?  What will you do for fun and to let loose?  How could I support you in manifesting your dream?

By the end of the month, I will be living one of my dreams and will be touring Europe.  I will remember to pack simply and only bring the essentials.  I will give myself permission to spend some money on a pre-trip pedi-mani.  I know I will laugh and play as I meet new friends and experience the Mediterranean for the first time.  I am looking forward to sharing new insights with you!  My soul is already soaring in joy!

Shine on, Lightworker!  Sending you lots of Love.

Today, joyfully celebrate life!

Pompon when he was a kitten.

Today is definitively wintery.  It has snowed all night and through the day.  Everything is covered with a thick white blanket of snow.  While some are delighted with Nature's gift this morning, others are cursing...

Does the snow bring out the grouch in you?  Do you allow the weather, world events and social interactions dictate your mood and outlook on life?  Are you bent on seeing the negative?

Remember that you can always choose how you meet and greet every moment of your day.  Just for today, choose to celebrate life.  Just for today, choose to have fun!  Just for today, focus on the qualities of others - especially those who annoy you the most!  Put aside the grouch that is telling you that because things aren't going your way, you will make life miserable for yourself and others around you.  Just for today, embrace life and your silly side.  Invite your creative inner child to play and guide you to a higher vibration.  Let your doubts dissolve, for in reality, all is well.

Remember the fun you had as a child building a snowman or a snow fort.  Remember how cool it is to be the first person to leave footprints in fresh snow.  Remember how wonderful it is to catch a snowflake on your tongue.  Remember the joy of curling up with a cozy blanket and a hot chocolate, reading a favourite book.  Close your eyes, and smile for a moment.  Allow those endorphins to flood your body.  Breathe.  And now take time away from this computer and go do an activity that brings you joy!

As I often tell my clients and students, our purpose in life is to connect with this essence of Joy.  It's important to look for the positive and for the lesson in every situation.  The Law of Attraction states that what you focus on gains in energy...  Choose to focus on the areas of your life that bring you delight, and find delight in other areas of your life that you consider a bore.

Today, I am taking delight in writing once more in this blog.  I do feel a tad rusty after leaving it aside for a few months...  but I'm not letting those feelings of "not good enough" stop me!  I choose to focus on all the wonderful activities I am creating and will bring to the world in 2014...  I am not allowing the fear of change and other people's negative vibes put a damper on my spirit!  I bring loving energy to all my relationships and business partnerships, knowing that all clouds will move on.  I am also taking delight in catching up with house chores, knowing how I love the energy of my house when the laundry is done and the dust bunnies have gone away.  I will also take a walk in the fresh snow, enjoying the crunch of fresh snow under my boots.  Maybe I'll even catch a snowflake or two on my tongue...

What joyful activity will you bring to your life today?  Share the Joy - leave a comment!

I did something REALLY scary...

I haven't had the joy to write in this blog regularly of late...  Going back to work has been a real shock to my system and my spirit.  It has validated that if I am to shine my light, I can not hide.  If I am to teach courage, I must myself make a leap of faith.   

So I did something REALLY scary yesterday.  I resigned officially from my government job to be full-time Lightworker.  The best part is that I feel at peace with this decision, and as soon as I have surrendered to my truth, to what's best for my soul... synchronicities have multiplied to validate that I am now on the right path, and everything will be OK.

I chose 12/12 as my last day, my gateway to the next phase of my life.

My wings are ready.  Watch me soar!

I am ready to teach and serve Spirit's will.  I am ready to work from my heart centre.  I am ready to be me.

...and I know that Universe supports me abundantly.  

Many blessings of Love and Joy to all.

Moving towards inner peace

The lead-up to my return to work last week was chaotic, with my "flight or fight" mechanism turned way up, my Inner Child kicking and screaming, and my Inner Critic voicing her dislike, pointing at my flaws, and being quite disappointed overall.

Thank goodness I have tools to manage my energy!  And thank goodness I remembered to use them!!  The night prior to my return to work I took a nice long shower using a sea salt scrub, with the intention of clearing my energy field and relaxing muscles and mind.  I did several rounds of Tapping.  I prayed to be able to stay calm and centered while observing the facts from a higher perspective, gaining insights on the higher purpose of my return to work.

And it worked.

What a relief.

I learned so much about myself in one week, and I was able to release so many old, outdated and negative patterns.  I felt much lighter and empowered.  I still felt a bit shaky in some areas, like a fawn trying her legs out for the first steps.  I am just so amazed to seeing how my transformational work has changed me.  I am so grateful that I have a perfect environment where I can apply my techniques.  I proved to myself that these techniques work, and work fast!  I know this richness of experience is making me a better person, and a better teacher.

Here are some of my biggest "AHA" moments of the week:

• Sea salt baths and sea salt scrubs work miracles to help me stay focused on the positive.  I read before that the sea salt's properties help neutralize the positive ions in one's energy field, leaving more space for the peaceful negative ions.  In the New Age field, we might say that we would prefer keeping the positive ions...  but remember science class in High School: the positive ions are the ones that are charged, while the negative ions are not.  The positive ions in your energy field are the ones that have attracted and became "glued" to elements of the environment, including other people's energy - so your energy field is vibrating with all these elements that are not yours.  It is best for one's energy field to be cleansed of all these "energetic debris" that you've picked up through the day.  I always feel centered, reenergized and calm after using a sea salt product to cleanse my aura.
• The voice of fear is a frequency that can be turned down and tuned out.  I realized how much fear I was carrying, and how loud that inner voice was.  If I would think of changing the time of a meeting, that voice would loudly state that it was not feasible, that it was unreasonable, that I would be denied my request, that others would be angry with me, how could I dare even ask...  Whoa, Nelly!  I have challenged that voice this week, asking her "is that really true?  Let's just try and see."  And then I would make a point of noticing positive evidences like, "You see, it was easy to change the time of that meeting.  I noticed how open and receptive to my ideas others actually were."  Slowly but surely, the voice of fear from that inner critic is diminishing.
• Weird things happen when you live out your shadow.  I grew up with a sister who was very dramatic, vocal, emotional and at times violent.  I suffered deep hurts, and I noticed how she was hurting other family members.  I vowed to never be like her.  The trouble is, when you vow to never be like someone else, you are denying yourself a part of who you are.  I realized how much I had been denying my own power, my own emotions and my own needs.  Not expressing my needs out of fear of being like someone who hurt me has actually not served anyone.  It created resentment in me in addition to low self-esteem; I was resentful that others would not meet my needs and my expectations...  but if I could not even formulate these needs for myself, how could others even begin to decode what they are, let alone meet them?  Resentment narrows one's perspective and darkens the experience of life.  Wow - huge life lesson here and continued transformation in progress.
• Living in the moment is a gift.  Part of my commitment to myself was to police my thoughts.  Every time I noticed my thoughts went in a direction that felt icky, I would notice 1-3 positive things in the present moment, and I would affirm these out loud.  If I noticed my thoughts were going toward the "oh for goodness' sake this work is crap" sinkhole, I would reply with, "but notice how beautiful it is outside today, and how lucky I am to be working from home with the windows open, feeling the breeze on my skin."  These statements instantly shifted the energy of my thoughts.

I am happy to notice that, at the start of Week 2, I am more at peace with my decision to return to the corporate world.  I am very happy to be learning life lessons and releasing karma.  Most of all, I keep holding on to the knowledge that Universe has something else planned for me that just wasn't quite ready yet (I wasn't quite ready yet), and pieces of the puzzle are now coming together nicely.  I am very grateful that the next time I leave corporate world, it will be with a light heart and not the with the heavy, angry and resentful heart I once had.  Healing is such a wonder-filled journey!

I am very grateful that the person who will replace me is being prepared on the energy level.  I know this replacement will become manifest in the very near future, and I am so excited about all the new projects and opportunities coming my way!  

'Twas the night before the big day...

...and all through my body icky crawlers were stirring.  The jaw is tightening and the heart rate is up.  The neck has a creak and I'd go belly-up.  WHY? The heart is crying, "Why do I have to go back?"  Acid reflux, and jitters, ants in the legs and a mind going bonkers...  Holy tamale, I'm going through the wringer.

http://www.thedailydoodles.com/post/51853397008/the-monsters-in-the-night-everyone-in-the-car

And then I stop and I breathe.  I talk to my dog and we set out for a walk.  She sniffs at Fall leaves and rolls in the ditch; I enjoy the cool air, the blue sky, the birds and the River. I remember to have a good dinner.  My glass of wine is a nice treat.   I set out my good clothes.  I remember my techniques for scaring away the ghosts and ghoulies.  Bye-bye, creepy crawlers.  I know I can choose my thoughts and my emotions, and I choose to whoosh you away.  And I stop and I breathe.

My books and my papers, my office pass and my lunch - all are ready tonight to ease up my frown.

In a moment I will soak in a nice hot bath, with 2 cups of sea salt to balance me out.  I'll add lavender and chamomile too, for I know a good sleep will do wonders for you.  And I'll tap on my emotions, my tears and my fears.  And I'll set my intentions for magic and ease.  I'll surround myself in a big bubble of Reiki and Light.  And I trust that I'm secure, I'm safe and I'm loved.  And I trust I can pull through for the Big Guy's rooting for me too.

Just for tonight, I release anger.  Just for tonight, I release worry.

All is well.  All is well.

And to all, a good night...

 

How can I transform anger into positivity?

That voice on the other end of the line again.  That curt, impersonal, "I don't really care", "got to follow rules" vibe.  Triggered.  My reptilian brain at the base of my skull is fully turned on in the "fight or flight" mode and can't decide which one to choose, since neither are socially acceptable.  My blood stream is filled with adrenaline, my eyes narrow in "the look", my jaw tightens - heck it feels like my whole skin is tightening (but not like I'm-20-again kind of way).  My energy field shrivels up.  I feel life force energy seeping out of me.  My inner child is kicking up quite the tantrum on the inside.  I feel angry about revisiting a chapter of my life I had wanted to close a year ago and now feels like unfinished business with no firm end in sight.  It's depressing.  It's gloomy.  It's frustrating.

I hate feeling like this!  I hate being triggered like this!  Ugh!

And I'm a Lightworker, darn it!  I should know better.  I know the importance of thinking happy thoughts.  I know like attracts like.  I know I am most likely firing anger daggers to the person on the other end of the line.  I know I am creating this reaction in my body with my thoughts.  I know I have the freedom to choose my thoughts and my emotions.  I know my perception of things is narrowed by my anger.  I know that my anger says more about me than about anyone else involved (here's a blog entry covering that topic).  I know the Reiki lesson of "responding" vs. "reacting"...  Yet I'm totally reacting.  And reacting that I'm reacting.

Have you been there before?  

The thing is, I have been studying all these great spiritual, psychological and philosophical principles for a good long time.  I am now being tested on my ability to apply them in everyday life.  Not just when it's convenient, when I am in meditation, or when I am with someone I like.  I now have to learn to apply these principles to the icky, uncomfortable, ego-in-the-way situations and relationships of every day.  *sigh*

Here's the situation: after a 1-year sabbatical, I needed to give my answer whether or not I would be returning to work.  I don't want to return to the office and to that office environment.  I don't want to return to work that is unfulfilling and makes me feel like I have drifted away too far from my soul purpose.  I want to continue to grow my business.  Yet, my savings account is running low on fuel, so to speak, and a fill'er up with a steady income is necessary.  The first year of operating my business has been more about soul growth, rest, and rebuilding myself rather than marketing and networking.  I feel stuck and too attached to that source of income...

So what do I do now?

Right after that triggering phone call, I went for a walk.  I actually ran a block or two, and I'm not a runner.  It felt good to use the surge of adrenaline from the fight-or-flight trigger to do what it's programmed to do: make me run away from that invisible and proverbial tiger.  That bit of exertion enabled me to think more clearly by flushing away the excessive hormones.  The bonus is that now I have a clue about what to do when I feel triggered: go out for a walk!  My body needs it!

I know that the manager who called me is a good person deep down (*very* deep down, snickers my ego...).  She is only doing her duty, her follow-up work.  She is not out there to get me.  And she is most likely reacting in her way to all those negative anger vibes I'm sending her way.  The best way to shift the relationship is by changing the energy I am sending into it.  To paraphrase Einstein, I will not find the solution to the situation with the same energy that created the problems.

Easier said than done?

That is the test now, and I welcome all positive vibes to support me through this paradigm shift!

What's the plan, Stan?

1.  Count my blessings

• The salary will help replenish my savings account and pay off some debt
• The salary will put me (and my spouse!) at ease, financially - a bit of a breather
• I will be able to treat myself and others during the upcoming holiday season
• I will get out of the house more, and have more interaction with others
• I'll get to purchase new office clothes, and shoes!
• I'll have some money for spiritual retreats, training and travel
• I'll get to see some coworkers I haven't see in a year, and catch up 
• I'll get to go to the "big city" and purchase the good coffee, salads, lunches I missed
• This is such a great job, with a good stable salary and benefits
• The 9 to 5 routine will help me become more productive and focused; I have been living in my head and imagination for the past few months

...OK, I'm starting to feel better...

2.  Remember my soul purpose

• I am to lead by example - going through such a test of my ability to apply spiritual principles will make me a better teacher, more authentic and "relatable"
• I am going to learn valuable life lessons, and release some karma
• Some people at work (and elsewhere) need to be inspired by my transformation, so that they can in turn work on their own transformation

...OK, I am breathing more deeply and slowly now that I understand the bigger picture

3.  Daily practice

• Remember to center and shield myself every morning
• Remember to use salt spritz and salt scrubs to cleanse my energy, every evenings
• Choose at least one fun activity to do every day, and share this fun with others.  (This weekend, I will shop for a new pair of "office" shoes and one new outfit.  On Monday, I will go for an EXCELLENT coffee with a colleague.  I am looking forward to it!).
• Ask for help from my divine team!  I need help seeing the good in all situation and in all people (especially those who trigger me!), I need help remembering the bigger picture, I need help to remember to breathe calmly, I need help to release emotional attachments and triggers, I need help to remember to take walks and find joyful moments every day, I need help to remember to notice when tension is building in my body and to do the necessary action to release this tension in a loving and supportive way...
• Be my "thought-police" and notice the thoughts I entertain.  Choose to release those that don't support my wellbeing or that of others.  For instance, focusing on "she a bee-hatch" isn't serving anyone.  For one short half-a-moment, perhaps...  but I can't hold on to that thought.  Focusing on "I'm stuck" is not helpful either.

...whoa!  I will be working on so many levels at once while trying to be productive with the work they actually pay me to do!  Add "Self-care" to my daily practice!!

4.  Activate a spiritual template

• All my spiritual teachers have mentioned that what you focus on, you create...  So I better start creating the template for what I want instead of festering in the energy of what I do not want.
• Here's my order form to Divine Universe:  "I am so grateful that an alternate is identified for my position, and that this wonderful person will be happy to take over my job position in three to six months' time.  I am so grateful that I will be able to benefit from the severance package this alternation will provide.  This alternation process will be easy, effortless and fulfilling for all parties involved."
• And also, "I am grateful for all the life lessons I am learning while I release karmic baggage and close this chapter of my life with grace and gratitude."
• "I am grateful that I can work on projects that are fulfilling, and bring me joy."

...OK, I feel much calmer now.  Please send good vibes my way to activate these templates!  It does feel good to write wishes down in the present tense, it does bring the energy of the solution closer and more palpable.

5.  Attitude of Gratitude

• In the big picture of things, I am grateful that my relationship with recent managers has been so tense and frustrating, because it is those exact feelings that have brought me to launch my business adventure full-time much quicker than I had originally anticipated.  I am working on what brings me joy, and my dream is much closer to my reach than it would have been if I was content with the status quo.  If we had a soul contract, and her part of the bargain was to jump-start me into my new adventure, she played her role with brio.  We will both be relieved when our contract is fulfilled!
• I have learned so much about myself in this year of sabbatical.  I have learned that being creative and following my intuition is at the core of my being - no wonder I don't do well in authoritarian, risk-adverse work environment!  I know that I'm an idealist, and I have found through my spiritual teachings a way to share my views of the world with like-minded people, ready to take action to make this world a better place.  
• I feel good about myself now, much more than I ever have before in my life.  Saying "yes" to me and taking time off work to reflect was the best gift I ever gave myself.  I am so grateful to me for that, and I am better prepared to support my inner guidance now.
• As part of my daily practice, I will find at least 5 things everyday for which I am grateful.

Can I count on you to send me positive vibes during this (last?!?) phase of this transformation?

I will share my progress and insights on this blog.  It will help me vent, and typically I see clearer when I write.  I also hope that my experience will be of benefit to others going through change.

Many blessing of Love and Light to all!