Last week, I had surgery

I had been expecting this surgery for a while now.  Part of me was looking forward to the relief in physical and emotional pain; while an other part of me was dreading it.  Now, it’s done.  And I feel good.

This is the ongoing story of my Sacral Chakra.

In everyone, the Sacral Chakra governs creativity, joy, sensuality, and enthusiasm.  The choices we make about how we enjoy our life experience, how we enjoy our bodies, how we enjoy creating, playing, and experiencing all that life has to offer…  all these choices influence the health and vitality of our Sacral Chakra.  I have a history of making choices that are not very life-affirming.  And I am changing that!

In my childhood, I learned how difficult friendships can be.  I learned that is was safer to keep my true thoughts and feelings to myself.  I learned lots about rejection, ridicule, and shame.  These stories continued in my teenage years, where my calm sense of confidence was really hiding a need to please, to be accepted, to be valued - but at the same time, I could never be just ME.  I learned about anxiety and panic attacks.  By the time I entered my twenties, resentment, victimization and anger had built to a boiling point.  I gave up a lot of what made me truly happy, like dancing and travelling.  I chose to be serious, get a boyfriend, have a real job, get married, get a house…  My mind built a plan - and it did not matter with whom these things happened, as long as I could check these off the list of to-do’s and gain a certain feeling of accomplishment.

Then I learned that feelings of accomplishments can leave one feel very empty and depleted.  When the mind’s plan does not take emotions into considerations — it’s a half-baked plan.  I hated my relationship.  I hated my job.  I hated my body.  I hated my family.  I hated myself.  Big - huge! - downward circle of negative emotions.  And with the feelings of loneliness and abandonment I’ve had since childhood, I felt as if there was no one I could turn to.  So these negative energies grew, simmered, festered.

When energies like that are not addressed in the spiritual, intellectual, then emotional aspects of the physical experience, they start manifesting as deep and chronic physical distress.  My natural cycle went hay-wire and I no longer could depend on its regular rhythm.  Fertility became an issue.  In my early thirties, I received three surgeries to help relieve the pain of the diseased organs.  But there was a lot of emotional gunk that also needed to be cleared.  Thankfully, that’s when I started on my own spiritual path of healing and was able to uncover and release several patterns that had plagued me for several years.

Now in my forties, I feel stronger.  And I feel my strength does not come from a place of confrontation, but from a place of inner peace.  I can find harmony and joy in every day.  I have forgiven many of my past traumas, and I’ve learned valuable life lessons. I’ve made some tough decisions like leaving a job where I felt like an emotional and mental zombie, with bursts of uncontrollable waterworks.  Now, I choose to end the struggle.  I choose to reclaim my power.  I choose to be truthful to my best, most divine, self.  I choose to walk in peace.

This surgery last week removed the interior lining of my womb.  As I did energy work in preparation for this procedure, I imagined the removal of the layers of poor choices I’ve made through my life.  I imagined layers of pain being burned away and purified.  I saw myself rising stronger, healthier, and more vibrant than ever before.  I let go of wounds and pain that were weighing me down in my journey.  I also offered this procedure as some sort of “human sacrifice” whereby through me and the continued energy work I do, others can also clear old wounds, feel uplifted, and reconnect to what makes them feel happy and fully alive.

I also choose to become better at receiving.  In preparation for my surgery and recovery process, I gratefully accepted good vibes, energy work, Reiki, and prayers from friends, family members, and my growing community of clients and students.  I felt very well surrounded, energetically, as I underwent the procedure.  I credit my speedy recovery to all the good vibes I received!  Compared with the surgeries I received 10 years ago - there was no dizziness post-anaesthetics, no pain, no cramping, no emotional upheaval…  only peace, vitality, and joy!

Energy work ROCKS!  It makes my heart sing!

Looking ahead from here, which feels like yet an other turning point in the spiral of life, I know I still have some tough choices to make to feel even more aligned to my Truth and my Joy.  And yet, I know I have the inner strength, the inner resources, AND the external support to move forward with even more grace, confidence and true lasting happiness.

I am wishing you all blissful health and harmony, on all levels of your being.

Are you living your Truth?

Are you being true to yourself?
A mid-winter’s reflection on Imbolc through the lens of the Throat Chakra

I am celebrating my first year in business in my healing centre in Ingleside.  This is the anniversary of my decision to do this spiritual work full-time.  This is a reminder of my panic moments and my hopes as I left my work with the federal government to pursue my soul’s calling.  I celebrate my leap of faith…  and acknowledge any resistance to truly leaping with all my soul… ‘cause it’s darn scary at times.

The Universe, in its infinite wisdom, synchronized the opening of my healing centre with Imbolc - the feast day of Goddess Brigid who is my patroness.  It is a chant from Starhawk that inspired the name for my business; this chant is typically sung on Imbolc:

We will never, never loose our way to the well of her memory;
And the power of her living flame,
It will rise, it will rise again.

This chant resonates with my soul at such a deep level.  It seems to capture my soul’s purpose: to teach others, through self-reflection, how to re-ignite their passion for living an authentic, meaningful and joyful life.  To teach others how to live an empowered life where the divine can be celebrated every day.  To teach others how to overcome fear of intuitive gifts so we can all shine brightly and fully contribute to a loving, peaceful, planet.  My business - my soul's work - is an invitation for you to reconnect with your deep inner well of wisdom, inner peace and unique Truth.

This is the truth of my Soul.  This is the driving force behind my programs, workshops and articles.  On Brigid’s feast day, I take time to self-evaluate on how well I lived these soulful principles.  Have I lived in my Truth?  Are my emotions, my thoughts, my words, my lifestyle in line with this Truth? What can I celebrate?  What can I improve or change?  Where do I need more guidance and help?  Then I do a ceremony to rededicate myself to my soul purpose, under Brigid's tutelage.

In the world of chakras, living in your Truth and embodying your soul purpose is a function of the Throat Chakra.  Here are some indicators that can help you assess if there are blockages or energy imbalances in your Throat Chakra:

• you have chronic ear, nose, throat and respiratory problems
• you feel out of balance; you are either prone to loosing balance and tripping, or you feel a disconnect between you body and your mind, or your physical reality and your imagined or ideal world
• your thoughts are not fluid, and you feel yours words don’t express your true emotions or thoughts
• your inner self-talk is negative
• you have issues with your thyroid gland
• your neck is stiff or you suffer from chronic neck pain
• you are timid and afraid to express your beliefs and your true nature
• you talk incessantly
• you feel depressed as you hold on to the belief that no one can understand you
• in your relationships or at work, you feel that you must pretend to be someone else
• you know you have a soul purpose, but don’t know how to share it or “make it happen”, and this makes you feel lost and hopeless

Did you answer “yes” to several of the above indicators?  Then it’s time you honour your body and your soul to purify your Throat Chakra.  I will give you several tips and techniques this month.  Remember to reach out and talk to someone if you need help!

How well do you resonate with your soul purpose?  I can help you gain clarity and confidence in expressing your most authentic self.  My sessions are intuitive as I tap into what your soul wants you to know.  I connect to higher realms using Reiki, an energy that can help shift and deeply transform how you feel.  Click here to book an appointment.

Surrounding you in Love & Light.

Dancing the Heart Chakra

“Moving toward inner peace and understanding”

Since I started my journey with Chakradance TM nearly one year ago, the dance of the Heart Chakra remains one of my favourite. The dances of the Root, Sacral and Solar Plexus chakras are physical, at times choppy, and often uncomfortable as we connect to the body’s energies – and that’s no small task for spirit-workers and overthinkers! The dances of the Throat, Forehead and Crown are a connection to a higher wisdom, beyond the veil and they are absolutely fascinating. The dance of the Heart, the dance of Love… it’s centre. It’s the path to inner peace. It moves us to more self-love and self-understanding.

Every time I teach the Chakradance TM Awakenings 9-week cycle, I am amazed at the transformation I see in my students. Their eyes glow a little more. The muscles in their jaws, neck and shoulders show less tension. Their breathing becomes slower and deeper instead of the shallow anxious breathing they’re used to. They linger after class, wanting to sit in this energy just a bit longer. They want to talk just a bit more. There’s a change happening within that they can’t quite put their finger on yet; it’s just at the cusp of manifestation and they want to slow down, wait and watch for it to happen. They know they’re just about to find something they have been looking for, and they’ve been searching a long time…

What is waiting for them? Their authentic self. It’s been there all along, but was buried under that mound of “shoulds” and “ifs” and “whens”. It’s been buried under social and personal expectations. It’s been set aside due to a drive to “do” and perform instead of living the enchantment of “being”. With the dance of Love, this hidden part of the self is lifting that corner of the cozy blanket it’s been hiding under, looking at you with a mischievous but happy smile, saying, “Here I am! You’ve been looking for me? I was here all along!”

When I first danced the Heart Chakra, I saw myself as a ballerina – that was my happy place when I was 7 years old up until my teen years. I was on stage doing pliés, ronds de jambe, pas de chats… nothing complicated but I was thoroughly enjoying being fully present in my dance and remembering how to smile from the inside out. I love how I have been able to reconnect with that part of me, and I am thrilled to see how this connection, this remembrance has opened up doors for me which I didn’t even know existed – or which I had forgotten.

It is so easy to forget who we are at our core. It is so easy to get swept away under the weight of family needs, work, and community responsibilities. This is your invitation to reconnect with that part of you that has been dormant for a while. The creative, sensitive and very wise part of you. The one who loves you unconditionally. The one that makes your soul sing. The one who sees the miracles and magic of everyday life.

Are you ready to lift the corner of that blanket and see what’s been hiding under your nose all these years? Are you ready to love yourself more and move toward inner peace?

Join me in Brossard this weekend for a full weekend dedicated to the Heart Chakra.  My colleagues and I are here to facilitate and ease your journey.  There's no where else where you can find this combination of yoga, meditation, Reiki and Chakradance.  This will be an uplifting and transformative journey, and we are looking forward to it!

Sending you blessings of Love!